Memories of fun in the past included rollercoaster rides. Those giant metal or wooden edifices roared as the track connected with the train.
Hands held high. An unplanned scream. Stomach muscles clenched in a clash between fear and excitement.
But today’s rollercoaster comes not from a machine or long lines of customers anticipating the ride of their lives.
No, we are all on a rollercoaster together — the emotional ride of 2020.
Just as we begin to feel a bit more secure, another jerk takes us to a scary elevation of fear or a sudden downturn of despair.
Back and forth. Up and down. The spiral cycles and the stomach clenches once again.
What does this rollercoaster look like in the waning months of 2020?
The Ever-Present Track of Covid-19. Our family had escaped Covid. Everyone was healthy. Then the phone call. The one person most susceptible – the elderly matriarch.
Mom is 92 and confused within the shadows of Alzheimer’s. She does not understand why she has been taken out of her room and placed in isolation. She does not recognize the staff people who now wear full PPE garb and speak to her behind shields.
The cruel rollercoaster of 2020.
Unexpected Circumstances. A simple step down into the garden, expecting to water flowers. Then joy at the colorful blooms became pain as my hamstring pulled, leg and hip out of whack. Doctor visits, chiropractic treatments, a cane to maneuver through my uneven yard. Three months out, and it still hurts to sit or stand.
The uncertain rollercoaster of 2020.
Cancelled Plans. A special birthday trip to my beloved Santa Fe and the wonders of the Southwest. Planned with a friend for months. Excitement flushes out as reality slides around the next turn. Travel is impossible with a hip injury. Wait another year. Forget this anticipation and push back the joy.
The disappointing rollercoaster of 2020.
The Search for Truth. One news channel reports their facts, complete with videos, fact-checking and credible sources. Another channel reports their facts, also complete with videos, fact-checking and credible sources. Yet they totally disagree.
The confusing rollercoaster of 2020.
Science versus Reality. Government agencies we should be able to trust release statements about vaccines, treatments, forecasted dates. Then the next day, they reverse their information. What?! Science changes overnight? How much is politics affecting information — on both sides of the aisle?
The puzzling rollercoaster of 2020.
Relationships Suffering. Families and friends who once worked together, worshipped the same God and rejoiced in spending time together. Now they are jerked apart by opposing views — both sides claiming divine inspiration. Both sides able to quote Bible verses and pound pulpits with their opinions.
The polarizing rollercoaster of 2020.
How can we find hope when our emotions are jerked up and down, around and around, spiraling out of control?
A carnival ride expert once said to focus on what is not moving, something that will not change no matter which direction the rollercoaster heads.
So we can focus on one thing — hang on to the thread of faith, that whisper of constancy that assures us, “For I, the Lord, do not change. Therefore, you are not consumed” (Malachi 3:6).
Eventually, we will step off and away from the rollercoaster of 2020. It will take a while to regain our equilibrium, and we will most certainly face a changed world.
But even as we focus on what steadies us, we can be certain hope will survive. It looks beyond the present tense, reaches toward the future perfect.
To be settled and steady. To feel secure. To know we have survived this year and hope for what promises to be better.
That is the goal of hope, an emotional place that may be shaken but still endures.
In spite of the rollercoaster of 2020, we can end our days with this Kenyan prayer: “From the cowardice that dare not face new truth, from the laziness that is contented with half-truth, from the arrogance that thinks it knows all truth — Good Lord, deliver us.”
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