When healing doesn’t happen, we tend to ask, “Why?”
Does God have a greater purpose in the process? Have we prayed correctly, cried out to God fervently enough? Have we sinned, somehow preventing God’s awesome power at work?
Everything within me screams, “No! God is so much bigger than my attempts to justify his silence.”
Yet as the days and nights pass and we struggle through the question of “What is wrong with Caleb?” we have to wonder at the delay of answers.
Since God is omniscient and omnipotent and all the other omni’s – he knows exactly what has happened to cause this distress.
He knows every hair on my son’s head as well as every nuclei in his millions of cells. God’s heart beats in sync with my son’s as they are united by blood – the redemptive blood of Christ. I know God loves my son.
Since God knows what’s wrong, then why won’t he tell us? We are searching everywhere for answers – reading internet articles by experts who list the symptoms of a myriad of causes:
Allergies, gluten, mold, diabetes, stroke, brain tumors, carbon monoxide poisoning, Alzheimer’s – really? Alzheimer’s at age 29?
Some of these illnesses we are pursuing; some have been rabbit-trailed. The most dangerous ones met with a resounding, “No, that’s not it.”
Thank you, God.
Yet the giant question mark haunts and no one knows the answer.
Except One.
So why the delay?
I wonder if we are caught in a heavenly conflict – another God versus Satan moment where both sides hold their breath while the Jobs of the earth are tested.
Will we trust God? Will we be still and know that he is God?
Satan smirks but God smiles and sings over us. He knew the ending before the beginning ever germinated.
And when this Job falters, when I cannot sleep for the fear that beats against my mommy heart – the prayers of others sustain me.
Some of you – reading this post – are praying for us. Thank you.
Satan falls because prayers always push him down.
Will we trust God and persevere through to the other side?
We sing out that God Himself, who allows the test is also the One who keeps us from falling.
Yes, bless God. We will stand strong.
Because when healing waits, God has a purpose. And no matter what happens or how it plays out – in the end – God always wins.
©2015 RJ Thesman – Author of the Reverend G Books http://www.crossrivermedia.com/portfolio/1624/gallery/fiction/
Amen. I awoke praying for Caleb this morning…then I read your post. I will continue to ask God for His revelation and your peace in the meantime. “Let us hold unswervingly to the hope we profess, for He who promised is faithful.” Hebrews 10:23
Love that word – “unswervingly”. Thanks for your prayers!
Yes, I’ve been praying. Your line should be part of a song or at least a free verse poem: “I wonder if we’re caught in a heavenly conflict–another God versus Satan moment where both sides hold their breath….” It is very appropriate for this trial. So many things in this life we won’t have the answer for (or at least not the complete answer) until heaven.
I hadn’t thought about it as a song, but what an interesting thought. Thanks for your prayers and the reminder to persevere!
I agree with Suzan. That was a beautiful refrain – one we can all relate to. And I didn’t realize the wait had gone on. Adding my prayers to the others. Sending strength.xx
Thanks, Amy. So appreciate your prayers as I know you understand the importance of waiting, hoping and hanging on.
I didn’t know at all RJ. I’ll be lifting you up in my prayers as well.
Thank you! The prayers of a righteous woman are powerful !
Hi, Rebecca. I am praying for you and Caleb this afternoon.
Thank you so much for your prayers. Tonight, he feels much better – although he bent over crooked and hurt his back. Poor guy!
Often I have wondered if I were not tested in Job like ways, too. I pray for you often, since I have read your posts. There are times when all I can do is cry and even moan, but I know that in the end God has a purpose for me. Jeremiah 29:11 comforts me at times: “For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the Lord, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future.” God bless you and your family.
Thank you for your prayers and the reminder of that beautiful Jeremiah verse. God does indeed have a purpose for you – and a good plan. We stand in that agreement together!
Thank you, Rebecca, for the good reminder that the journey is ‘much about the journey’. About us and our relating to a Good Father, and he to us. Anchoring and re-anchoring in our Hope – himself.
Yes, Jerry, so very true. We keep going back to the Anchor of our souls and that’s where we find Hope.